Ouch

I am calm.
I feel flutters with in my stomach.
I go off the handle.
I see you and my heart beats so loudly i think you hear it.
I squirm and jump around like a fool.
I beat myself up later.
I freak out some more.
I hate this feeling i want to rip out my heart.
I feel like i am going to have a heart attack.
You barley move and i act like a monkey.
You are a beauty of unmeasureable proportions.
I turn into a train wreck after math.
I turn into a solid source of energy.
I have no chance.
I am a fool.